I can’t get myself to grip the idea that i’m leaving high school in two weeks. I’m excited but i’m nervous and scared. I just want to pause time and enjoy it. I feel like everything is being rushed right now where I don’t have time to enjoy my last two weeks as a senior. All the teachers are cramming, we have AP exams starting next week. I want to leave because I want summer but I don’t want to leave because I want to stay young, I want to be with my friends. I know my fears are holding me back from college but I just want some time to relax.

um no haha

Every time i’m talking to someone and I reference a memory I hate how I have to say “used to” … things have changed and I really don’t like them, but there’s really nothing I can do.

I’m ready to leave but at the same time I don’t want to. I have 20 some days left… 20 days. This is my last year of high school and even though I honestly can’t wait to start over, a new chapter, I’m scared to death. MHS was my comfort zone, it’s where I found who I really am and in a few weeks we are all going to be gone.